Alright friends, its time for the weekly update.
So far this week has been a bit of a crazy one. Work has me working from home so I’m spending a lot of time with the small ones (my 2 cats Gir and Houdini), and the mister. But being under pseudo self isolation has given me the gift of time.
Time to think and reflect. largely I have been using this time to really look at where I think I want to be in the next 10 years. This is an ongoing line of thought for me these days but I’m really trying to narrow it down. What are my goals for the next 5 and 10 years? What do I think I will be able to accomplish? What building blocks do I want to put in place to continue my growth? And then there is the reflecting time that I have been continuing to invest in. What do I think of the last 10 years? How have I fallen short of my expectations? And just as importantly, how have I exceeded my expectations? I’m really trying to make the most of this time ahead of me and plan for the big transitions ahead.
I’ve started actually taking this time to invest in myself and think about the big stuff in my life as well. Things like my spirituality and what that means to me. As I mentioned in another post, spirituality is something I’ve really struggled with but as I approach my thirties its felt really important to actually take some time to figure out where I sit with my spirituality.
It’s also given me time to think about short term goals. Like not going completely nuts being stuck in the house most of the day with limited human interaction. Yoga is going to be important as my usual routine with spin has been interrupted. I think I need to be doing yoga about 3 times a week, but its hard to know where to start with all the options out there for online yoga classes. If you know of any really great instructors doing youtube or similar, please let me know in the comments.
I also think I am going to double down on my meditation. I’ve got a ton of room to improve on my meditation practice (going from once a week to more than that shouldn’t be too hard right?). So wish me luck!
Well that’s pretty much it for this week. Hopefully next week is a little less of a crazypants time in the world. I’m really trying to be an optimist during this time, but it can be difficult with so much coming at you all at once. Hope you all are staying healthy and safe.
Just be. That’s something that not many people can do. Myself included. But what would happen if we were able to do so? What if we woke up one morning and had nothing to do and were able to just be a human? Just do what feels good? Just exist in your own corner of the universe? That is something that really resonated with me from my yoga class this week. There was a time in class where we were encouraged to just move to the music that was playing, just let everything go and accept that movement feels good. And I found myself struggling to look around and see what everyone else was doing instead of just existing in that moment. And it got me thinking: when was the last time that I was able to let go and just be?
I feel like this concept really hits something deeper. Its not about just existing and floating along, but instead its about being connected and present in the moment. Taking a moment for yourself in the chaos of every day. Now I hustle with the best of them, but I’m really beginning to try and take the small moments too. Like I had been saying in my previous post, I’ve been trying to take more moments for me. And I think something that needs to play into that is my presence in this world.
It’s so easy to float along and just go through the motions. My challenge for myself, and you, is to really take up the space you deserve to take up. Instead of making myself small for the comfort of those around me, I am challenging myself to be present and real and be ME.
Meeting this challenge won’t be linear, nor will it be comfortable. Its going to have progress that will be rocky and hard, just like my wellness journey.
Speaking of my wellness efforts, I was successful and happy in all of my classes. I feel whole and sore and tired and excited for the movement forward I’ve experienced this week. And I love the fact that I’m branching out into things other than just fitness (which is a huge part of course). So something that I’m going to work on this week is meditation. In the past my meditation practice has been focused on anxiety maintenance and I’ve not been successful in being present in it, so I’m shifting gears. Being present and existing in my own light is the new aim. Mindfulness is a lot more than just a buzzword to this almost 30 girl.
How are you going to take up the space you deserve? Let me know in the comments! (And don’t forget to follow the blog to hear first when there is a new post!)