So this week it’s been a bit of a step backwards in some of my goals. Houdini (my cat) had a major medical issue that had to be dealt with suddenly last weekend and it’s been a week of playing catch up.
My meditation practice has kind of fallen off a bit as a result. As has my yoga practice, or really my selfcare practice. I am finding myself become a bit wound up in taking care of everyone else and making sure they have what they need. This is both who I am and a little frustrating because I know that I need to take care of myself as well. I’ve said before that I am learning that self care isn’t a dirty word, and it’s been so difficult to go down this path and really discover who I am.
In good news, I have been using puzzles as a bit of a meditative activity. Something just peaceful and quiet where I can quiet the noise of my mind and be in the moment. That’s something that is important to remember about meditation. It’s less important to sit and do nothing than it is to give your mind a rest.
Being in isolation from the world is difficult. Being in isolation from the world while taking care of a sick cat is even more difficult. But, at the risk of repeating myself, it’s also the gift of time. And so far it hasn’t really been time well spent. I have so many things that I want to accomplish with this time and I haven’t really started any of it (except my puzzling). I almost feel like there is too much that I could be doing so I am going to break it down to 3 impactful things that I am going to do this week.
- I am going to rearrange the office. This will let me go into the work week with a clean and organized space that is ready for me to work in.
- I am going to meditate in some way 3 times this week.
- I am going to do yoga 3 times this week.
I feel like if I can accomplish these 3 things this week, it will have been time well spent. Otherwise next week will feel just as long and drawn out as this past week.
How have you been keeping sane the last few weeks as the world has become more and more chaotic? Let me know in the comments! I’ll take all suggestions! And don’t forget to like and follow the blog if you like what you’re reading for future updates.
Just be. That’s something that not many people can do. Myself included. But what would happen if we were able to do so? What if we woke up one morning and had nothing to do and were able to just be a human? Just do what feels good? Just exist in your own corner of the universe? That is something that really resonated with me from my yoga class this week. There was a time in class where we were encouraged to just move to the music that was playing, just let everything go and accept that movement feels good. And I found myself struggling to look around and see what everyone else was doing instead of just existing in that moment. And it got me thinking: when was the last time that I was able to let go and just be?
I feel like this concept really hits something deeper. Its not about just existing and floating along, but instead its about being connected and present in the moment. Taking a moment for yourself in the chaos of every day. Now I hustle with the best of them, but I’m really beginning to try and take the small moments too. Like I had been saying in my previous post, I’ve been trying to take more moments for me. And I think something that needs to play into that is my presence in this world.
It’s so easy to float along and just go through the motions. My challenge for myself, and you, is to really take up the space you deserve to take up. Instead of making myself small for the comfort of those around me, I am challenging myself to be present and real and be ME.
Meeting this challenge won’t be linear, nor will it be comfortable. Its going to have progress that will be rocky and hard, just like my wellness journey.
Speaking of my wellness efforts, I was successful and happy in all of my classes. I feel whole and sore and tired and excited for the movement forward I’ve experienced this week. And I love the fact that I’m branching out into things other than just fitness (which is a huge part of course). So something that I’m going to work on this week is meditation. In the past my meditation practice has been focused on anxiety maintenance and I’ve not been successful in being present in it, so I’m shifting gears. Being present and existing in my own light is the new aim. Mindfulness is a lot more than just a buzzword to this almost 30 girl.
How are you going to take up the space you deserve? Let me know in the comments! (And don’t forget to follow the blog to hear first when there is a new post!)