Holy guacamole its been a time. I’ll be better about writing here eventually, but for now here’s what’s been going on.
I just finished a tech week with the opera in town. The Barber of Seville. Ultimately its a great show and I learned a lot while doing it. Especially about who I don’t want to be as I approach 30.
See, there’s a lot of sexism in my industry. I was fortunate enough to work under a fabulous lighting designer for this show and she was so wonderful to me. However, our head of lighting is known to be at least a little sexist. At least to me and people of my age. But I had hoped he would be better behaved with someone who was a little more experienced (read: A LOT more experienced) than me. And he was, mostly. Still with the clear condescension and attitude and refusal to do certain things. Ladies you most likely have experienced behavior like this in your life and understand how frustrating it can be. Dudes, just don’t be that guy.
Above all else, the experience of the last week and a half was a good one. It’s reminded me of why I’m embracing the changes that are happening in both my personal life and career. Approaching my thirties has been a huge transition period for me, and it’s not one that I am likely to be through before the big birthday hits. Out of the tech week I’ve gained an important mentor who has in a way given me validation to work in the way I have been moving. Working with Eos has been incredible in a lot of ways but it’s been really hard to admit that it means moving away from theatre as my primary form of income. But speaking with Kim I’ve almost been given permission to take my time with Eos as it comes and enjoy it. It’s challenging work but also creative and most importantly flexible enough to allow me to continue in theatre part time.
The problem is, I’ve been hustling for so long I don’t know how to stop and settle in to a routine. But I also don’t want to be so exhausted all the time I can’t enjoy life. I don’t want to be so busy that I miss the important days in life. And I don’t want to lose myself to work.
Do you know what I mean? What are you looking forward to in the next week? Drop a comment below and let me know!