I have been listening to a podcast and I was reminded that the things I have been experiencing aren’t unusual but definitely aren’t talked about enough. I am on the precipice of being 30, and I have no fucking clue what I’m doing. So I’ve decided to write this blog. As I figure it out, hopefully someone will read along and commiserate my experiences.
The long and short of my introduction is this: I am 29, Canadian (yeah CANADA!) and work full time at an architectural lighting company. Or that’s what I tell people because its easier to explain than “a lighting and audiovisual experience design and integration” company. Seriously. Say that 5 times fast. In my spare time I try to see friends and make new ones because having moved to a new city 4 years ago I am learning that I haven’t integrated into actually living here as well as I should. Or could.
Twenties me thought she had everything figured out. Had the perfect relationship, was in the perfect city for me, was going to have kids by the time I was 30 and be happily married by then as well. Well almost 30 me is learning very quickly that I literally have nothing figured out. My relationship is rocky (yep still the same one) but we’re working on it. I’ve got no kids yet, am not married, but I still feel like I’m right where I’m supposed to be. There has been a lot to let go of in the last few years and even more that I will have to learn to accept and not only that but thrive with if I’m going to survive this transition from my twenties to my thirties.
So welcome to me. To the ride of my life so far. And cheers to figuring it out!